Friday, March 09, 2007
Okay, I said I wouldn't be blogging much. But here I am again. That's what happens when you're a blogging junkie. Is there a cure for blog addiction? Do I want one?
Oh, probably not.
Anyway. About insomnia. I get it. On occasion. I used to hate it. But now,well, I've kind of made peace with it. I've learned to love my insomnia.
You know how it happens. You go to sleep at your regular time. And then, somewhere in the darkest part of the night--you're awake. Used to be when that happened to me, I'd fight it. I'd try so hard to go back to sleep. And you know how it is when you put a lot of effort into an activity--no way do you then drift into peaceful slumber.
So enough with the trying. I have a fresh, new approach. I surrender to my insomnia. I go with the flow. I mean, if I'm going to be awake anyway, me and my mind are going to have a good time.
Thus, as I lie there, eyes staring wide, I ponder the mysteries of the universe. I fix every plot hole in my Work In Progress. I rehearse acceptance speeches for awards I've yet to win. I rewrite the endings of movies that didn't quite work for me. I let my insomnia have its way with me. I lie back and enjoy it.
Sometimes, after an hour or two of insomni-mania, I just fade back to sleep with a self-satisfied smirk on my face, having won the RITA at last and also found a way to end world hunger.
Last night? Not so much. I was awake for three hours, at least, when I should have been sleeping. So today, I've got a million things I want to accomplish and I'm starting out tired.
But it's all right. I did so much last night, after all, when the rest of the world was off in dreamland. I can't exactly recall all the things I worked out in my mind, but I know I did...work them out. I know all the solutions will come to me. Maybe when I'm not so tired.
How about you? Get insomnia now and then? How do you deal with it?